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Brunch:Turkey and swiss with cabbagge and jam.
I just ate a slice of watermelon
I did work out too 🙂
Later I may eat a fruit cup
So, girls I have a boyfriend. I’ve had one before but this is my first real mutual-feeling-not gonna hurt eachother after a week-lovey dovey relationship. Hes actually trying to get muscular this year and so Im like well I gotta lose weight for him!
Do you guys actually read this stuff or just look at pics???
i GOT THIS CUTE WITTLE BABY CHIUAUA AND i WOVER HER SO MUCH. tODAY i ATE A TOASTED PEICE OF WHOLE WHEAT TOAST, A BITE OF A COOKIE, AND SOME CHILI FROMALE HOUSE. aLL I DRANK WAS WATER AND THE CAPS ARE SICK BUT OH WELL YOU CAN READ RIGHT?
Did any of you guys see it?
It made me feel not so alone. It was literally exactly my story. Weight problems at a young age. Never feeling worthy and good enough. Staying up writing 7, 8 songs a night. It just felt like wow so someone understands. Someone wants to help. But! It not only inspired me…for some strange reason…it thinspired me….
P.S demi is so gorgeous and beautiful inside and out
My birthday was Saturday 🙂 I have only eaten some spicy popcorn chicken from school which was at 11:something. I went out of town and got my hair did ;). Im tired of being alone and single. I guess I just want to be loved
So Im failing geometry. I’ve been failing math most of my life though. My dad got really upset and I realized that it’s my fault. Not just this grade but, everything. Misunderstanding small things cause Im stupid. Going to classes after school when I know he’s waiting. Like he said I need to know my place and be where I should be. He gets tired and works a lot and Im a huge dissapointment. So sometimes he forgets to pick me up or is late or gets annoyed with me and Im never understanding about.
Today he told me that I’ll never be some one and I’ll end up as a cashier. He told me to not complain about how hard it is cause its not hard. So I didn’t say it was hard I just said yes sir and mhm and yes. Whats sad is Im not going through anything. Im not distracted. Im just dumb. Luckily he waited until we were in the hall(school hallway cause went to the school and talked to my teacher) to reprimand me. It was no school today so there weren’t that many kids. He wasn’t as lound and physical this time.
And what also sucks is that he thinks Im failing cause Im cocky and I think I don’t need to try but most times I know I’ll fail a test or quiz. Even when I think I can do it…I don’t. Im just natrually a failure. I want to go to college and get away from my family and give them a break from me but, my dad said i’ll never make it to college cause of this F and a t first I thought he was exxagerating but maybe he’s right. If I drop a class level it’ll be harder to get a scholarship and oppurtunities. My parents can’t pay for that. You’d think I would fix the problem immediatley right? I come home write songs and then half ass homework cause Im so sleepy and tired afterschool. Theres a reason I have 1 real friend and even he thinks im retarded. Theres a reason my dads always been strict and hostile with me. Theres a reason I focus on fashion and weight and make up and hair. I focus on beauty cause I sur as hell don’t have half the brains I should.
I don’t even know why I posted this cause theres no thinspo theres nothing cute or funny so no one will probably read past the first paragraph. if that! but I had to get it out someway. I don’t know why.
I told my friend Im trying to lose weight a couple days ago. I brought her this huge cookie (my mom got a whole box) and she offered me a bit cause it was so huge and I refused rpeatedly. So she asked why and I said I want to lose weight so I ate an apple. She said “but your so tiny” …lies
Lunch: Small Spicy popcorn chicken and rice krispietreat
Activity: Dancing and singing
I didn’t eat much today and I slept through my hunger but, when I woke up…OMFB I thought I was gonna faint or puke.
I’m going to newyork city soon and I plan to I’ve there after highschool exceep then I won’t just be a fashionable young lady ill one class confident fashion foward skinny bitch ow!I’m watchin 750 pound man right now. Shows like this motivate me
The life is fading from me while you watch my heart bleed </3
I just lost the two people I thought were “bestfriends” . Apparently I talk to much about a guy I like. So they couldn’t tell me they had to tell eachother behind my back and everybody on facebook before it got to me. It hurts so bad Im in tears. I want to talk about it with some one but I can’t I need my real bestfriend right now 😥 , its so painful my heart literally hurts, my herats beating fast cause im so angry, and I keep replaying sad slow kesha and justin Bieber songs. I feel so betrayed! Im so angry and hurt and I don’t know which one’s worse. All this cause I really like a guy…Now finding this makes me feel like a third wheel they had to drag along like the whole time it was them against me. Like I was just some little pity friend they thought they add on to their duet to make me feel better….
I haven’t felt like this in a while and I can compare it to my first heart break when I’d just turned 13 (im 14 about to be 15)